I'm in a funk :(

I am stuck in some parallel universe where I can not shake this funk. Everything is making me cranky or pissy or makes me feel pms'y (yes, I'm aware I made up a word!). It has started to feel like everyone else in my life has great news to share: engagements, babies, moving, ANYTHING. I feel like I am standing still and when I get news it makes me upset or even envious.

I hate not feeling thankful for what I do have. I have my two little pups that I love, but I want a baby. I have my wonderful boyfriend, but I want a husband. I have a gorgeous house, but I want a new kitchen. I love my car, but I wish it were newer. I feel like a brat throwing a tantrum.

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I know there are people out there completely worse off from where I am. I think of where I was 3 years ago and I'm proud to be alive. I was still depressed from losing my son (which I still carry around on my heart), newly widowed and just plain depressed. Lately it's been feeling like I'm slipping back into a huge depression and I'm not sure why. My friends are passing me by and I'm left on the sidelines being upset. I used to have such a zest for life and now it takes everything I have to get out of bed each morning.

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I don't expect anyone else to understand. This is my blog where I share how I'm feeling without being judged. I'm sorry to be such a downer, but I need to purge my mind and hopefully gain some clarity from this.

 

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Finally a decent weekend!

This weekend was like therapy for me. I seriously did some mega retail therapy, had date night with Mr. P and cleaned! Of course let's not mention how I wanted to bake something and still have no stove :( or that I woke up Sunday morning to find my lovely pups in the middle of tearing up a library book. Or how I woke up from a nap to find them gnawing on my fav college sweatshirt. Also, my phone is having problems sending pictures :(

I did nail down some details for Cookie's birthday. I made invites and made an event on facebook so we will have guests. Although the pups would be happy just to have a single friend over, let alone the 12 (yes, 12!) dogs we are inviting. Here is the picture I got for facebook. 

**Alot of treats were needed to obtain the following pose**

Here are the sweet deals I scored at Target and finally got the pictures to the computer!

I decorated the pots and have 2 green and 4 of the white ones. The black bowls have a silver dog bone that says "Feed Me" on them. I got those for a quarter on clearance! I'm just going to send them home with the smaller dogs as favors :) I also have pink bags that I'm going to decorate to say "Doggie Bag". I'm really enjoying being creative.

Here are the pictures of the pups I snapped in the bed yesterday. They are seriously spoiled.

Mr. P spoiled me a little and bought me a couple purses and a new wallet. I don't normally like his tastes, but I kept one of the purses and a wallet. The other purse I told him looked grandma-ish, so he gave it to his Sister-in-Law.

Mr. P took me on a date last night to go with the purses :) We went to the cheap theater (it's $2/per person) cheaper for us to go to the theater than rent a DVD. We saw Despicable Me (cute, but not great) and had Logan's for dinner (I had gift cards). The whole date cost us about $10 :) I have no idea how much the purses/wallet set Mr. P back though.

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