Thursday, November 4, 2010

I'm in a funk :(

The Two Savvy Sisters

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I am stuck in some parallel universe where I can not shake this funk. Everything is making me cranky or pissy or makes me feel pms'y (yes, I'm aware I made up a word!). It has started to feel like everyone else in my life has great news to share: engagements, babies, moving, ANYTHING. I feel like I am standing still and when I get news it makes me upset or even envious.
I hate not feeling thankful for what I do have. I have my two little pups that I love, but I want a baby. I have my wonderful boyfriend, but I want a husband. I have a gorgeous house, but I want a new kitchen. I love my car, but I wish it were newer. I feel like a brat throwing a tantrum.
I know there are people out there completely worse off from where I am. I think of where I was 3 years ago and I'm proud to be alive. I was still depressed from losing my son (which I still carry around on my heart), newly widowed and just plain depressed. Lately it's been feeling like I'm slipping back into a huge depression and I'm not sure why. My friends are passing me by and I'm left on the sidelines being upset. I used to have such a zest for life and now it takes everything I have to get out of bed each morning.
I don't expect anyone else to understand. This is my blog where I share how I'm feeling without being judged. I'm sorry to be such a downer, but I need to purge my mind and hopefully gain some clarity from this.


  1. I am a new follower from the BOB hop. Do not apologize for your feelings and I hope blogging (journaling) will help you. I do not know the devastation you experienced but from your post I could feel your pain. Hang in there and I will follow your progress.

    On a lighter side, I wish I had a chip to dip into your button!

  2. Thanks for your encouragement. I started this blog to share my feelings and that is what I'm doing. I hate being pessimistic though. :/

  3. I'm sorry you're feeling so blue (& that your dog ate your coupon book.)

    I don't know what I could say that wouldn't sound trite right now, but I'm sending you a big virtual hug!

    living well, spending less

  4. Following from the blog hop. Please come check out my blog when you get a chance!

  5. Hi there!

    I'm your newest follower and would love for you to stop by and follow me back!

    Don't forget to enter my giveaways while you're there!

    Cheers from Being Frugal & Making It Work!

  6. HI!~ I have battled depression for years. It is horrible and so hard for anyone to understand! Be strong! Thanks for linking up at Traveling Through Thursday! I am now following you. Hope you feel better every day! ~Heather

  7. Hi! I'm a new follower from the Think of Me Thursday Hop. I really like your blog and I hope you like mine too!


  8. Here from the bloghop.
    I'm a new follower. Please follow back